Lord?

It was 2010 when I last wrote a blog. I was listening to christian songs a while ago when God told me to make my blogger account active again and of course WRITE. Actually, I don't know if this is for me or for someone else but who cares... My God is telling me to do this. I don't know what to write and I am hoping that as I type here God will give me wisdom and His words to make this blog sensible. Let me start by saying I really do not know what to do. You know God has showed me a lot of things and have done miracles in my life but the question is where am I? From being a youth leader, bible study teacher, song leader and Pastor's assistant to a girl sitting on her bed, not going to church and losing her way. WHY? WHY am I like this? Am I even worthy to do anything for the Lord? I don't know. Should I stop doing this? I do not know either. All I know is that His love never fails to amaze me everyday. I know I love the Lord but so many times I fail Him. So many times I know the right thing to do but I still don't do it. I hate what I become. I remember before when I was about to lead in worship. I asked the Lord what specifically I need to do and He answered. I followed Him. I am certain that because I followed Him everyone in our church experienced the presence of our God. It is not me but Him who had covered me by His blood. It is Him who is in me. So my point is.. let us listen more closely because He can use us mightily more than we can imagine. Most of us are in doubt of our capabilities but it will always be our God who will take cover when He asked us to do something beyond our means. I love my God and I need help from Him. I pray that God can still use me.